Healthy Lifestyles, Eating Disorders and Spiritual Awakening
Today Casey and Erin talk about transition into a healthy lifestyle and also past eating disorders.
If you struggle with an eating disorder this could be your halfway to a spiritual awakening. It was for me.
I used to curse my eating disorder. I was so into fitness, and as an athlete I felt like I deserve to have a muscular athletic body. I felt like I work so hard that I should be able to have that. When I explored why I wanted that type of body so bad, it was because I wanted to be admired, loved, and accepted. I wanted to be respected. I wanted to dodge any judgment and be liked by everyone.
But, I refused to sit with myself. It’s funny I have told the story about my first yoga experience, and actually that is inaccurate. In Japan is when I first got into yoga, but my first yoga experience was actually my first two years of college. I took a class, and I thought it was stupid, slow, and my mind was too busy for it.
I was caught in the dream, or rather the whirlwind, the tornado, the nightmare. I was trapped in layers of thoughts run by an illusion that my ego produced. If I do step one, step two and step three, I will be happy. I listened to that false voice for so long.
Even when my intuition was screaming out, I ignored it and I listened to this insane voice in my head of what I had to do. And what I had to do was look a certain way, and then I would be happy.
“To attain true inner freedom, you must be able to objectively watch your problems instead of being lost in them. No solution can possibly exist while you’re lost in the energy of a problem. Everyone knows you can’t deal well with a situation if you’re getting anxious, scared, or angry about it. The first problem you have to deal with is your own reaction. You will not be able to solve anything outside until you own how the situation affects you inside. Problems are generally not what they appear to be.”
-The Untethered Soul